They come and go.

i have a friend whom i treasure much. she helped me through many tough times and i have been there for her as much as i can. Even when the other new friends i make at school didnt seem quite right, at the back of my mind, i knew she will always be there.

always? maybe its the dependency and denial, but i think we are starting to pull each other down. We both face the same kind of problems but in totally different circumstances. But how do we move on from here?

And today i realised. In letting go is the first step to moving on. Not that i will stop being her friend. But i will stop distancing from everyone else just because i know she will always be there. but she wont always be there. they are just my expectations.

It's disheartening. but we all need to move on with our lives and not make time wait.
im telling myself that she cannot be a perfect friend. some are good for talking others are good for fun. i cant believe i actually feel this sad.

Big to small to cozy.

Finally somewhere with a pool and gyms. not that it made a difference in my weight when im near them. but beats eating when bored. love my new room! no, its not because its small. because....Theres bathtub! yayness! betcha didnt know what Laura loves to do besides eating and sleeping!
taking wonderful long baths. its a luxury to me.

oh shittzles, i'll kill charmaine for asking me to watch You're beautiful. i feel the whole twilight obsession coming back. its like the world's greatest show. so im wondering, why am i here watching kdrama when i could be in a rock band undercover as a guy with 3 other guys falling in love with me? yes roll your eyes, but you'll know what i mean after watching the show.